Baby’s First Trip to the ER

I’ve always been a pretty clumsy person. I’ve run into, tripped over, and fallen on more things than I can count in my twenty-four years. In fact, my earliest memory is of the time that I broke my left foot. I was about two years old and I was pretending that I was in the Olympics. I stood on top of a box and jumped, intending to land on one foot, but I did not come out the victor; I hit the floor with one foot just fine, except for the fact that I broke it and had to be rushed to the hospital that night.

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I wore that cast proudly.

As a mom, I have always thought it would be really cool if my daughter took after me in some way, but this was not exactly what I meant.

Yesterday, we got home around 9pm from running an errand and Boo wanted to climb up the stairs on the outside of our apartment building and back down the single set of stairs inside that leads to the ground floor, where our apartment is located. She has done this a million times before. I stood off to the side, watching her slowly make her way down the steps backwards, as she usually does, and when she got to the last step, she stood and turned. When she did, her foot caught on something (I presume her other foot) and she fell forward, crashing down onto the ground.

I panicked.

My poor baby was hysterical. I picked her up and held her for a minute, but that didn’t seem to do any good. I walked down the hall to our apartment, sat down on the living room floor with her, and attempted to calm her down, to no avail. She hadn’t calmed down a bit and I knew immediately that something was wrong. I began touching her foot gently, moving it around a bit, and she screamed at me. She broke her foot. I knew it, I just knew it.

I quickly stood up and packed us both back into the car and headed to the nearest emergency room. They took X-rays and I tried to keep her calm, which worked until she tried to stand on her foot again and realized how badly it hurt, then fell right back down. It was also way past her bedtime and being exhausted didn’t help matters whatsoever.

On the bright side, the X-ray showed no signs of any fractures, so they concluded that she severely sprained her ankle – a week and a half before our vacation, no less! That seems to be our luck. I’m glad she’s okay, though. That is not an experience I would like to relive anytime soon… or ever.

Losing My Mind

Even though I’ve been having trouble sleeping lately and haven’t been getting much sleep at all, I find myself awake at two in the morning and I have to be up in six or seven hours to start my day. My brain won’t shut off.

I’m always thinking about dozens of things all at once. I mean, all the time. Is this normal, is this what it’s like being a mom? Because I didn’t sign up for this constant to-do list that I store in my head. It just keeps getting longer and longer and longer. Why can’t there be more hours in the day for me to do the things I need – and want – to do? I have so much to get done in the next couple of months, and I feel like I’m spending too much time working and not enough time with my daughter and every second of the day, I’m being pulled in a million different directions at all times. It’s mentally exhausting.

We’re going on vacation in just under four weeks. Mommy really needs a break from life for a few days – it can’t happen soon enough.

Caffeine and My Toddler

I learned a very valuable lesson last night.

I drank a large Mountain Dew Baja Blast yesterday evening. It’s something I have now maybe twice a year, and I thoroughly enjoyed having one yesterday. I also learned a very valuable lesson: a large size of anything loaded with caffeine is probably a bad idea when you’re breastfeeding. Well after midnight, she was awake, kicking her father and I while she desperately avoided sleep, in spite of the fact that she was exhausted after the day’s events. It didn’t occur to us until sometime after 2am the reason why she was so wound up.

It was a total parenting fail on my part.

She’s napping now. If I weren’t busy, I’d be tempted to join her. I certainly deserve a nap after the night I had.